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My Bug Bear is already 9 months old already? 

I feel old his friend showed him how to do the fancy S......oh goodness

This is what happens when Evan refuses to nap during the day...

This time he napped himself! 

He slept like this for a good 45 minutes until his nice older brother woke him up......

I have more than one picture like this but can't find the other ones

For the record I do nap Evan but there are days that life happens and he doesn't nap and when he does pass out I always take a picture of it! These were a few over the past few months! Cute kid.

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Flash Back Wednesday!

Josh Brooks & his prize "catch" Avery when he was around 4 ish

Toby when he was around 17 months old! Such a ham

 Avery when he just turned 5! 

This is when we were in Denver went to Broncos stadium 

My handsome boy!

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Ummmm Don't ask about the paint can just know I shouldn't be in charge of opening up paint can's......& picture of me getting ready to do said paint job!

played so hard she passed out in the play pen! awe my cute bug bear!

a bunch of sickies around here! Poor husband :(

Richard went to work feeling fine on Monday morning. I went to wake up the kids on Monday and Toby had thrown up sometime during the night and was covered in puke (gross) and Avery was complaining about being sick and threw up himself (oh joy) and then come Monday towards the end of the day Richard said that he was starting to feel sick had a nasty headache etc etc. By the time he went to bed that night around midnight he was having a fever of 101.2 and the next morning he had a temp of 102.4. So he stayed home and slept. I talked with my friend Lisa and she said he had the same symptoms she did when she had the Flu and only had 24 hours to get the meds in him for them to work. So I dragged him to the Urgent Care and sure enough he had the flu. While there he needed breathing treatments, which was crazy to me because is oxygen levels were in the low 90's and yet Monday morning, the day before he went to work with no symptoms at all! And when he coughed his body shook. Poor husband. He never goes to the doctor's like ever......like this is the 2nd time he has gone in 7 years, the last time was a follow up apt after his surgery when he had his appendix taken out right before I gave birth to Toby! Tomorrow is Thursday and he probably won't go to work tomorrow either. He's never missed 3 days of work before in the 3 years he has been at his job. 

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My Mom's puppy Sedona 

He wanted to wear his hair "up"

Daddy's little Cowboy fan! So cute!

He loves wearing hats! Realized he needs a haircut BAD!

Me & Mini Richard! So cute!

She is a total binky baby she discovered this and was in heaven!

Judging

Judging a person does not define who they are. It defines who YOU are.

I know I am not perfect. I know I judge people, I know I judge people who judge me, which I know sounds dumb right? It's something I am working on, to not let things or people upset me. Get to me. I am doing so much better than I was last year but I still struggle with it. 

I struggle with it because I consider myself a nice person. I am not perfect but I do honestly try to treat people the way I want to be treated. I have my faults. I have my insecurities but I do try to improve my outlook on life and remind myself that I cannot control how other people feel and treat me. I can only control the way I react to it. My goal is to not let it bother me, let it slide off my bad as if it never happens. Not get myself wrapped up into the drama of it. 

I am trying

Some days are much harder than others. 

What boils down the one thing I need to have my faith in God that what I am doing is the right thing. Not letting people hurt me or get to me. 

I just need a reminder sometimes...........

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Alice's 8 month check up she weighs 16.2 oz and 25 inches long. Now Evan at 6 months weighed 19.1 pounds and 26 1/2 inches long! Evan is HUGE compared to Alice! Here are the boys while waiting to see the doctor

My bug bear :)

After the apt we went and visited Daddy whenever she see's Richard she HAS to be held by him or she throws a huge hissy fit! It's quite cute

She loves her Papa! 

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She loves this new to her toy! She thinks she's a big girl :)

First bath together, let's just say he was less than pleased, he covered himself and screamed get her OUT of the tub! Oh goodness!

She LOVES her brothers!!! 

Seeing all this snow depresses me on so many levels........It needs to be spring like last week!

Toby wanted to take a picture of me.....I am so pretty (says Toby! awe)

This is what happens when he doesn't nap :(

Average Day For Me (Right Now)

Haha so true......sometimes I feel this would happen if I tried to get away

Alice comes to work with me on Saturdays I forgot her bumbo but we made it work still 

Just me and my favorite Falcon hat! 

I am a stubborn person. I am an OCD person. It's a bad combo. I have been told by my own husband that I need to quit being so OCD about my cleaning of the house. But I can't help it.

This is how my day goes as of right now. I am in need of a vacation so very badly! Anyone wanna join me in a run away? I wake up every morning saying I will go to the gym, and then reality hits and I don't want to get out of my bed. 

7:00 AM (Ish) I go downstairs and wake up Avery, he currently is sleeping in the room with Toby & Evan right now until we get his room finished (putting up walls etc) so he doesn't have his alarm clock in there so I sneak down and pull him out before the brothers wake up. 

I go back to sleep while Avery gets ready...............

7:45 AM As of lately I have been letting Richard take Avery to school in the mornings it's a huge blessing to let me sleep that much longer. We don't let Avery walk to school during the winter months

8:30 AM Finally wake up and crawl out of bed. As of lately Alice has been waking me up with her playing in the crib, talking and babbling. Sometimes I lay in bed just listening to her talk to herself, it makes me smile just listening to her. I get the other 2 boys awake and get them fed breakfast along with Richard some Breakfast and make his lunch for the day. 

9:15 AM Get Richard out the door for work and get going on my morning ritual of cleaning. 

1. Start laundry 
2. Vacuum the living room (dog hair about drives me bat crazy)
3. Sweep Kitchen & Stairs
4. Clean out cat box and take out any trashes 
5. Make Beds and clean up bedrooms as see fit
6. Clean bathrooms (I have 3 boys who are potty trained, it has to happen daily)
7. Put away any laundry that finishes up
8. Spot clean house as needed 

And as of late Alice has been attached to my hip while I do my chores which takes me longer to get everything done, but I don't mind as much seeing how cute she is and how much fun she is lately, talks to me giggles with me and all smiles, she and the boys really do make my days brighter. 

Around 11 I usually get finished up with everything. This is around the same time Alice is ready for her morning bottle/nap. I will usually sit down and relax with the kids and play with them or we watch a movie until I have to start work. At 11:30 I will go and get ready for the day, I still get dressed even though I don't go anywhere, keeps me in check that I am still human! I will then get the boys lunch ready so they can eat while I start work. Once the boys have eaten lunch I will put Evan down for a nap. 

Right now I am in training and 3 days a week I work from Noon-11PM some days towards the end of the night I will get to log out early because it is slow but like tonight I worked the full 11 hour shift. Some days drain me more than others, that's for sure.

During my lunch hour I will work on dinner for the night. And work on homework with Avery. During my breaks I usually will switch out laundry or put laundry away and take care of the kids IE wake up from naps, or needing of snacks.

Once work is finally done either 8pm or 11pm I will finish up whatever else that needs to be done. Laundry be put away, random crap that I couldn't finish during the day Take a shower and go to my comfy Pj's. Once I finish up everything I feel that needs to be done (according to my standards), I will watch some TV with Richard. Around 1 am (Ish) I finally cave and take my Ambien and go to sleep. Only to start over my never ending laundry cycle of life...................

I don't feel like I am a super Mom by any means. I feel like I need to do more with the boys, I miss being a stay at home Mom. I enjoy the fact I can work from home but I truly miss just taking the kids where I want when I want. I miss meeting up with family or friends when they come into town. But I love money, I love paying off my debt. I am so close to being debt free. It's a mind game I play with myself. Part of me just wants to keep pushing forward and things will pay off later down the road and the other part just wants to hold my babies and go play with them and say screw the money......a game I hate playing in my head but it happens almost daily. 

But for now I keep pushing forward. I keep doing what I know or feel is best for my family right now and that is becoming debt free. And somewhere in my crazy schedule of mine I am thinking about going to school for billing and coding? Yeah.......crazy I know but the job would allow me to work from home and not have to worry about my kids being quiet while I talk to a client on the phone. It would allow me to do my own hours so I could work a few hours in the morning and the at night after the kids have gone to bed. That appeals to me big time. Now I just need to come up with the money for the school and spend the next 6 months in my spare time to do the schooling. So you can only imagine as to why I haven't started it yet! 

I also work for my Mom's doctor's office on the side as well. Yes 3 jobs, on top of being a Wife & a Mother. I only work a few hours for them a week, mainly on Saturdays, but it's so nice to get out of the house. As of lately Saturdays have kinda become my day. I am saving up all my money I make with working for my Mom to go to Disneyland with the kids in June. I am so excited to go, these next few months need to fly by! 

So please tell me when I should squeeze in going back to the gym? I want to make it happen but part of me likes my lazy free time because it doesn't happen very often. And hard to believe but I really do love sleep! 

PS Please tell PCH they are welcome anytime to come knocking at my door! Just Sayin!

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Avery got another 100% on his spelling test. He got almost all A's and B's on his report card. I'm so proud of my smarty pants! 

 This stupid sticker costs me 300 plus dollars? blah! One very expensive sticker if you ask me!

Ahhhh yes the joys of having children! I was in my "office" and I heard a loud thud from the kitchen then Toby screaming at the top of his lungs. He came running to where I was at and he was holding his hand. It instantly swelled up and went purple. I was worried so I had him take some Motrin for the swelling and gave him a bag of ice. Few hours later it was still looking pretty bad. So we went to the Urgent Care and they did some XRays, Thankfully it wasn't broken. Just a bad sprain and 2 broken blood vessel's Doctor wants me to keep giving him Motrin for the pain for the next few days and the swelling should go down. Poor kiddo! I'm sure this won't be the last time we are getting XRays! 

It's been a nasty week for sure.......I'm so ready for the weekend to be here!

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I changed the Wednesday Posts, thanks to the cousins Christi Zook! My cousin's wife. 

This week has been a little crazy ok, when is it not crazy around here? Such is life when you have kids and work! Richard has been working a lot lately too. He's in the process of moving up to a different office so it's been crazy to say the least.

A man and his puppy 

Man alive my hair is getting LONG! 

His Hero............

A Boy and his Kitty.......poor kitty

Richard's attachment to his hip...........