Three Letter Word......

VTO...Voluntary Time Off. It's a three letter word that I love/hate. I love when the offer VTO, I can leave early get away from the place I spend WAY to much time at and hate spending so much time at. I miss working from home more than anyone realizes. It was the best of both worlds. I got to spend time with my awesome kids and I got to work. I loved it. I miss it, but because other people in the company thought it was OK to NOT work when they were "working" from home, they took the project away. Great, so I get punished for others not doing their job. NOT FAIR. Whatever. So when they offer VTO here (only for a short time, once Tax Season fully hits it's OT for me) I have SUCH a hard time not taking it. I hate being here, period. I hate being away from my babies. I want to be with them, not stuck at stupid place that is next to impossible to move up in the company. Bryan? Enough said.....Lisa will understand what I mean, basically her awesome hubby is stuck in support and shouldn't be because it's next to impossible to get out of here! I want to be home with my babies, I don't want to be here....I feel trapped...like a caged animal most days so when the offer the sweet VTO words it takes everything I have to not take it and when I do I can't get out of the parking lot fast enough. It's not like I am getting off at noon, it's only an hour early but 1 hour more with my babies is time I will take any day. When you take VTO that also means you get to leave early without pay. Sigh....what's the price of my freedom? It's so hard being here when I could quit and just be a bum and leech off the state, but I refuse to do so. So instead I stay working, and having someone else "raise" my kids. I hate it. VTO I hate/love you.

FYI: I like to keep as many pictures possible of my family reminding me why I am here...for them...& I need to badly upate the pictures too! & yes that is the Hulk on the top of my cell, I like him, and if you notice at the bottom of my monitor that's a Alice in Wonderland doll and I also have a grimice from Mcdonalds and a My Little Pony, I am a kid at heart....